Guess who's back? Bwahahahaha...its me....Razzo Spazzo ...aka Raz...
So why have I been gone so long when I had said i'd be back for good?
Because thats what I tend to do. Leave things half finished.
But I am NOT going to live the rest of my life fat. Im not going to settle for a blog, that I left behind, like a forgotten dream. This dream of thin.
The weight that I had gained over the summer (because of my break-down regarding a certain job loss), Im slowly losing, (im already back down on the path of skinny again.) With a totally better job.
Because I dont want to be the fat one anymore. (I HAVE NO REGRETS, I KNOW IM A FATTASS< BUT ISNT THAT WHY WE ARE ALL HERE TO CHANGE? SUPPORT ME AND I'LL ALWAYS SUPPORT YOU GUYS.) :)
Weight Goals! (From Feb-July)
Starting weight:150
Currently: 146 ew ew ew i know :'(
Weight lost so far: 4 pounds
Need to lose (in total): 23 pounds!
More pounds to go: 19
1st: 145
2nd: 141
3rd: 137
4rth:133
5th: 129
6th: 125
Ending Weight
***Keep your weight at 125-129 …*** (i mite go lower, we'll c, i've never been in 120's since 5th grade or so. And im big boned so the weight loss does tend to make me look too gaunt/ freaks my parents out, seriously not making this up, i'll post a pic of my clavicles sometime, there huge!...)
So what has happened today? Ummm...too many cheese puffs. Other than that, i really cant remember the last i've binged and im really happy about that! I have a strong urge to purge, but i drank a butt load of water to get rid of that feeling. Have you guys ever noticed that initially drinkng a lot of warm water to the point of feeling full makes you feel super fat because it enlarges your belly?. But after its all gone (ie peed away), you feel even hungrier than before. Well before that happens im going to hit the bed.
You see, this times going to be different. This time I know my body more, understand it, and what I need to lose weight. And this blog is one of them, so thanks guys! Before and After pix will come after i've acheived these goals. This is it you guys. It's now or never.
P.S Oh, yeah did I mention im getting married in october? because the boy purposed :)...gotta getta skinny, gotta get skinny. Im going to be the most beautifull bride anyone's ever seen...hehehe...
Eeeeeee!
ReplyDeleteYou're getting MARRIED!?
That's amazing, I'm so so happy for you :)
*does a little SHE'SGETTINGMARRIED dance*
It is now or never. Let it be now :)
Xx. Lillie
Hello girls I have returned to blogger after trying to lose weight the healthy way and developing a better mental health I gave up I threw it all away to become "Delicate!!" Threw all my hard work away so I could eat from one extreme to another, to get to my goals quicker!! As many of us do we give up and think it will be easier and quicker to try a stupid diet which you only end up binging and back to square one!!
ReplyDeleteI am ashamed of my choices and want to continue down my path of being healthy!! I can not believe I nearly threw it all away!! I have decided to give it my all 100% and nothing less!! I will reach my GOALS but in a HEALTHY way!!
I too want to look great in a Bikini, in that Little Party Dress, in those CK Jeans but I want to ROCK them without feeling GUILTY, without LYING to all those around me and to not be KILLING MYSELF in the process!! I want to look HOT in ULTIMATE HEALTH and HAPPINESS, I want to have AWESOME SELF ESTEEM and I want to ROCK CONFIDENCE!! I want to earn the JOY of achieving HEALTH - HAPPINESS - SELF ESTEEM and CONFIDENCE the right way not the wrong way!! I want this more than anything in LIFE and I am going to get it !! It is now or never, there is no looking back!! Please support me and I will return the favor!! I choose to follow girls with distorted eating as I feel they understand what I am going through compared to "normal eating" girls they just think I am crazy!!
http://never----ever----give----up.blogspot.com/2011/02/one-place-to-another.html
I am putting this every where because I know I will influence at least one person out in this great big world to never give up and to keep trying!!
In the SAME boat girl!! I'm done giving up and I think that if we support each other we can finally reach our goals. Good luck and THINK SKINNY(:
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C.C.