Friday, April 2, 2010

Past few days

Hmm, not in the mood for structured writing so Im just gonna make a list of all the good and bad things that happened to me these past few days.... ( er- Green = good and Red = bad )

Lets start with the bad, shall we?
1.) ummm, this morning before work idk what came over me, and binged on those fun size twixes. I hate addmitting this. My excuse was that it was still morning. (i friggin ate them with my allready planned out breakfast!!! WTF??? ) And that I'd have all day to burn it off....
2.) There's no more negative cal oods at our house. I was just looking around for lettuce and carrots or somethin... *le sigh
3.) Work sucks...
4.) Still 139.0 the point zero is in green, because atleast its not 139.9 !
5.) Not been getting enough zzzzz's
6.) Boyfreind went off to ohio........................................................... :'''(
must get skinnier b4 he get back, yes???!!!!

The Bueno:
1.) Im too lazy to make a proper ana bracelet, but i think i got something better. Because you see, I got this hair band scrunci type thing, (its the perfect shade of ana red), and it really is perfect because its a lot more helpful. How, you may ask? Well, today after my workout, my wrist had gone all veiny, and the "bracelet" had sort made an indentation into my skin. It hurt a little, but wow. It felt sort of symbolic, i dunn know. Maybe im just a tad kooko rite now..:P
2.) I love my boyfreind. He is my ultimate thinspo.
3.) I can see my hipbones a little more now.
4.) I feel so much more better about my self when im loosing, and restricting. Life is better telllin U!!!!!!
5.) I threw on my usual black "skinny-ish" pants without having to worry about if my thighs looked fat.
6.) Sister's so into studying and eating, she's begining to look a little pudgy.. (im tired of being the fat one, can u blame me???)
7.) Avoided loads of food at the hotel and at home, ( excluding the twixes...atleast they were funsize?)
139 going on 138... uuurgh im so FATTTTTTTTTTTTTT!!!

Wow, i have so many followers..Thanks for reading and commenting. It feels really nice when you take time out of your important lives to listen to my ramblings...gosh... <3

we only have one life. I dont want to live mine as a fatty.

No sirree bob.


  1. You're 139 going on 138.
    Not 139 going on 140!

    Structured writing is overrated, as clearly shown by my journal.
    None of us want to live as fatties.
    We're going to die thin. :]

  2. "we only have one life. I dont want to live mine as a fatty."

    Me too, maybe you should read my anorexia story. ;) [my latest blog entry]

    Keep getting skinnier! ;)