Saturday, July 17, 2010

Back to normal(ish)..

I have tons of GOOD news to share! First of all to all my 200 followers a biiiiigggggg huuuuuugg!!! Its not about the number of follwers really, that impresses me, but how supportive and non-judgemental you all are! Like angels :))). Okay, enough with the sappy

Secondly, I have stopped binging!!! I love it! Im not going to sleep friggin dusgusted with myself and overwhelmed with guilt anymore, its lovely. It was just a sort attitude adjustment that I had to make, you know. From , "oh woe is me, I'll never be thin/good enough", to "I've done it before, and I'll do it again, I refuse to be the fat one an longer!". So yah, it's been about 3-4 days binge free!

And, I've decided on becoming a phlebotomist, you guys! I know its not that much of a career choice, but I think that atleast it's something. I could alwaysin the future, work my self up from there. I am going to be paying for my schooling out of my own pocket! Even if my parents offered to pay, I wouldnt want them to.

Because if I become something, that I thought up myself, and actually make a good decent life for myself, I want to be able to say tomarow, that: "yes, this was my own decision, and mine alone, I helped pick myself off the ground and supported myself". Basically, it will be a declaration of my own independence, and so that they can finally see that I DONT NEED THEM!!!. Sure I love them and all , but I cant stand their having so much power over me. I can make my own decisions, and I've decided. Wish me luck guys!!! :D

Back on-topic though, I've been really slacking on the exercise >_< Muscle stretches, and simple calisthetics, tennis yesturday afternoon, but not, you know A REAL GOOD SWEAT INDUCING WORKOUT!!!. Maybe getting off blogger for awhile would help, hmmmm? lol

Okay guys, I love you and your all sweet words!!! bye for now,
Lets get sexxxyy! ;) ... 


  1. Yay! I haven't binged in a while either. Maybe a week or two! Doesn't it feel great?

    Good luck! We love you too!!! <333

  2. Not binging makes you feel so good, doesn't it? Every time I feel like I am going to start a binge, I try to remind myself how awful I will feel after, and it usually works to prevent it from happening. Love you! xoxo

  3. I love not bingeing! So much less guilt in life! :D It is a total rebirth of thinking, ay! *Does happy booty-fat-killing dance*

    Have an awesome day!!

    Oh yeah, what on earth is a phlebotomist?? XD

  4. im so glad your doing well--not bingeing is amazing :) and its so hard to break!! so great!!! :)