Monday, January 4, 2010

What happens when you run out tears?

Didnt post for awhile because family from canada decided to come over and ruin my perfectly executed plans to fast on new years eve eve..:(

Ended up eating more than I would have liked.

Was so depressed after they left.

Binged and purged.

Up untill 2.30 in the morning trying to undue the damage.

Yes, I realized that I was undoing all of my hard work while I sat there and gorged...

Because you see, I decided not to kill myself last night, and in return this bing attack was my brains way of "rewarding" myself for this (?)

Allmost choked and suffocated on my own vomit. Scary stuff.

But todays a new day. Another chance.

Whatever it takes to get there...xxoo


  1. I'm glad to hear your well and alive. B&P is the worst. Stay strong, you'll get through this.

  2. yay your back *dancing* ...

    er okay so it hasnt been THAT long..
    ive choked before purging and it doesnt help that food always comes out of my nose ...

    stay strong

  3. when you run out of tears, then you know it's time to wring a smile out of life!

    don't be sad. you can do this! you can start your fast now; it's never too late!

    take care of yourself (: