Who else can i tell.. *please excuse my language...>.<
when i break my own promise's and eat the damned pizza..(only the toppings..but still...shame ;(
when i start to eat more and more and more. Telling myself with each new thing i reach for, that "this is the last thing, this is the last thing"
when the last thing becomes more like, might as well f- it. (mia's voice...she likes to visit every two weeks or so, right when I start to make any really progress...bitch. Her and me... )
when i got bits of food logded in my throught and nose, from purging...disgusting.
when i drink gallon or two of water to ward off the light headedness and dehdration.
when aftewards i get on the treadmill for about 80.00 mins?
when i still dont think thats gud enough, and want to pretend this day never happened
when im glad i saved the laxies for days like this.
I can only tell you guys.
***Lesson learned: Dont become over confident, weight is lost thru EATING LESS. Not making excuses (!) ***
I know I'll be okay. But had to get that off my chest. And if you actually read all that..well give urself a pat a on the back...lol
gud nite everyone..and hopefully a much better tomarow... :)