Jeez, i've been off this thing for awhile! Well, not really, i've been reading all your blogs religously, just not posting my own stuff, becuase man have I been buuuuuuuuuuzzzzzzyyy!
First of all, your's truly is no longer unemployed!!! Whoo hooo! I found work at a really nice hotel, as their front desk agent. Yes, 8 hours a day I stand there and take reservations.. (party-- not).
Well it's all actually been okay, but my weight is not budging. Like at all. Noow I'm starting to wonder if it'll EVER???!!!
The reason behind this post was to try and talk to people who know Im talking about. We binge, we purge, we starve and do all sorts of crazy things, all for one purpose. To achieve what we all imagine is perfection for ourselves. You guys know what I'm talking about, and so I'm sure that you guys understand how even how sometomes you try SO HARD, its never good enough?
I've stayed an even 141, through all of this bull shit. (My hectic work schedule,super duper strict- old fashioned parents, breaking and making up breaking making up w/ bf, binging purging starving and EVERY LITTLE THING ELSE...)
I've had it. I'll just have to maybe put some things on the back burner. Because I dont think I'll ever be truly happy unless im thin.
Finally a new post, finally a new me.
No regrets, no looking back, tomarow is a new day...im ready to fight fight fiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhtttttttttttttttt!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
okay,,bye 4 now...;)
Congrats on the new job! That is so awesome :) And the weight will come off soon. It sounds like you have had a stressful time of it lately, so it's no wonder you haven't been losing as quickly as you've wanted. But look on the bright side, maintaining is soooo much better than gaining!!
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Hee girl!
ReplyDeleteI've only discovered this blog by today, but already feeling happy and understood!
I'm dealing with the same crap over and over again!
Wanting to be thin SOO bad, dreaming about it for SOO long.. but never really found the strenght to pull through (i dont know if this goes for you as well)
So thats why i binge, and then feel sad because i ate so much!!
I need someone to give me strength and motivation..
Sorry for my englisch, i'm dutch!