Saturday, May 1, 2010

A mess of Raz's thoughts

If your wondering who Raz is, that's me. ( sorry not that creativly

> sliced me wrist. Like some sort of emo person, (that im not, (?)). Really dont know where that came from. But im not doing it again anytime soon, summer's one month away, and i love my t-shirts, ya know...

> Not spoken to the boyfreind. I want him to take the initiative and make plan's and stuff first. It's always me, and idk, am i dumb, but I feel like I love him more than he loves me, and idk, I hate feeling this vulnerable. So far he's only called twice in like 2 weeks. : / He says he buzy with his exams.--- I am one obbsessive, sorry for boring you...back to the main issue

> Not binged too badly, despite monthly gifts typical cravings, (until tonight, cookies, and i dont want to talk about it.)

> Purged. The mentioned cookies. My eyeballs hurt still, from the pressure, because i had them on an empty stomach, wasnt a whole lot, but stlill calorie dense, so they had to go.

>Poured dish soap on homemade granola bars, so that I woudnt eat them. Haha, it worked...:)

> Mom brug 2% milk, down the drain it went, when she wasnt looking..i hate waisting food, i really do, but it sure beats anwering people's questions. And she had brung it in so lovingly, (after the purge). I think she's trying to fatten me up... hmmm

> im sleepy, but work is gonna suck big time tomarow. (sunday's are our buziest days). Guy's cross your fingers, I get to go home at a decent time...argghhh...stress induced cortisol stomach is the WORST ...

> Good night lovely's...:) And Happy MAY! ..l8er


  1. Haha, that's awesome, pouring soap on food. But it worked!! I hate wasting food too, but it's much better than the other option, which would be eating it.

  2. Oh, geeze, i hope your wrist is okay.

  3. I know the feeling of everything you have mentioned above, so i can totally relate :)

    Be strong :)