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Hey everyone. I just havent been posting as much because I feel like such a failure lately, wieght-loss wise. Right now I am hungry, cranky and all I really want to do is take something that will make me leave reality for awhile. If only to kill some time. I've got no job, parents wont pay for college, and all I've got is me and this disorder. Me and AnaMia. We all come into this world alone, and we are all gonna leave it alone as well. Its so wierd this state of  mind in. I want to lose it. I want to lose myself to this disorder. You guys, stay strong. Atleast stronger than me.